Proud of me

Tonight has been a major turning point for me personally. I've managed to listen to A LOT of songs which make me think of Peter WITHOUT crying to every single one of them!!! There's one or two that still gets me right in the heart and that's ok. ❤ I understand that there might me …

The wave of grief

I'm not going to sugar coat this but this coming week is going to be a difficult one. Tomorrow is two years since Peter's cremation and then Friday is his birthday where he would've been 38. Thursday, I received two boxes of Peter's things, I knew they were coming and I felt OK with it. …

❤ 2 Years ❤

❤ 2 Years ❤ It still feels as raw and as fresh as the day it happened. If only you realised just how many people you had in your life who loved you and would've supported and helped you through everything. Your passing has changed me in so many ways... I'm certainly not the same …

🕯1 Year – A Letter To You🕯

Wednesday 29th January 2020 This year has been one of the toughest years any of us have had to face. The day you died was the day our lives changed forever. Every Christmas and every birthday, I would always think 'Is this going to be the year he shows up for Isabelle?' That thought can …

📅 JANUARY 2020 📅

January - it's always a shit time for most people after Christmas. Everyone's usually in debt, skint and wanting to get rid of the festive podge they've put on over Christmas. January for me personally, has always been a shit month because it's the month my grandad passed away so his anniversary has always been …

🎶😐 LOVE THE WAY YOU LIE PART 1 AND 2 😐🎶

🎶😐 LOVE THE WAY YOU LIE PART 1 AND 2 😐🎶 When you realize that in order to move on with your life you need to grieve properly. To grieve for that person, that life you once had with them, that person you once was, the time before it all went wrong, the happy times, …

My mental state…

Just before we went to Ibiza something happened which I didn't want to talk about and to be honest I still don't want to mention it now - Sorry! Before this situation happend I felt like my life was changing and things were really on the up for me personally and professionally, however, since what …

Unexpected news…

Tuesday 29th January 2019 I got a call to say that my ex-husband, Peter, has died. He was involved in a road traffic accident on a motorway. We don't know if it was an accident or if it was suicide and there's a chance we might not ever know. Despite all the bad times and …